Monday, January 30, 2012

Thanks a lot SAG Red Carpet

Brian and I have a formal dinner and dance to go to in March for breast cancer awareness….
So, I have been on the hunt for a new dress (so much more fun to wear a *new* dress)……

Anyways… Of course, I watched some of the SAG red carpet last night… And I FELL IN LOVE with Kathy Byrne’s jumper!!

Friday, January 20, 2012


"But they that wait upon the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings as eagles;
They shall run, and not be weary;
and they shall walk, and not faint."Isaiah 40:31

Love Love Love. All you need is love

6:30 am and I am at work.
The things we do for love.

The cabbage came out amazing. Was delicious. I am having some for breakfast!

I'm feeling pretty tired.

Oh yeah, hello Aunt Scarlet. Thanks for ruining my sleep over with Brian.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Magical Thursdays...

Happy 8 months to Brian and I. Big whoop…. :D

Tonight is date night, and I’m feeling pretty excited.
I have too much fun looking forward to date nights. We spend weekends together, so it’s fun to meet up during the week for a date.

This one is still different, cuz we’re weird like that…

I have a massage/reflexology/ ear candle appointment at 530. I should be done by 7, at his house around 730.

Menu is stuffed cabbage and broccoli. I followed a recipe, except for the enchilada sauce. Since the cabbage rolls would be sitting for about 24 hours before consumption, I didn’t want them to be ruined and soggy from the sauce…

The original plan was for Brian to come to my house for dinner (rare occasion), but since he is driving home after work, I felt bad having him drive to my house.. My gears were rolling, ticking and coming together to form a plan to make his life easier. That’s what I do… I make everyone’s life easier. And usually, my own more complicated. I love stress!

So, I offered to meet him at my house before my appointment and he can hang out there before I get home, but that’s such a loooooong time waiting for someone at their own house….. Doing what? Watching Netflix? Reading COSMO? He would do the dishes. And vacuum. And wash my kitchen floor. And then I would feel guilty that I didn’t do those things myself so he COULDN’T… He already does my laundry. He is sneaky sometimes. I will be wondering where he is, what he is up to… I do not walk around the house looking for him. It is a small house, but how weird would it be to walk in a room and he is changing and just wanted some privacy? Sometimes I know he is in the basement, but he is so freaking quiet when he is down there, I don’t know what he’s doing. He could be cleaning the litter box for all I know. That is something I don’t necessarily want to help him do… Even if I went down and he is putting clothes in the washer, how many people do you need for THAT? hahaha


Concluded that I would go to his house. Bring dinner with me. And we will figure out a way to heat it up on the stove top, since his oven doesn’t work. That was at about 1030 last night. When we made a decision, I went to the kitchen and put the cabbage rolls in the oven for their 20 mins on 350 per directions on the recipe. So, I cooked them. Mostly because I don’t exactly want to be gassy tomorrow night…. I decided I am sleeping over. NOT sexy to be a smelly person.

While waiting for the cabbage, got some clothes and crap together for the trip to my mom’s for the weekend. This trip is why we are even having a mid-week date night. We wanted to get together before the weekend. Maybe I will get to see him again next week. ? =]

Taking a half day tomorrow.. Quick lunch with Tom since we didn’t get to do that for Christmas.
Then on the road to Mom’s! =]

I wanted to make my pumpkin cheesecake tonight to bring with me, but ohhhh well… I can make it there! =] Also want to make german apple pancakes (they’re muffins, but Paleo-friendly) on Saturday with the kiddos (Gabe and Kenz)


Mom: DELICIOUS coffee..
Stepdad: DELICIOUS decaf coffee..
Mackenzie: iTunes gift card and a picture of ME WITH COOKIE MONSTER AND ELMO!

Emily, Dave and I don’t generally exchange. I like it that way… =]

We are supposed to get a dump-load of snow this weekend (Saturday night). That will suck driving in on Sunday, but whatev…
I am leaving around 130 tomorrow (hopefully) and should be there around 530-6.. Sunday, hoping to leave around the same time to get home early. I want to be driving while there is sun-light as much as possible so the roads aren’t as frozen. I am hoping this works out!!!! And maybe dinner with Brian on Sunday? Will pose this question tonight and see what he thinks. =]

Cannot wait for the massage. My upper body (shoulders/neck) are bothering me, and so is my lower back! WHAT GIVES ?!


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Boys, Boys, Boys

Listen to the Ke$ha song. Boots & Boys.
And Lady Gaga's Boys Boys Boys.

I swear, the grocery store is the best place to meet cute men! Just buy ingredients that are obvious of what the meal is going to be (taco shells and beef means tacos)... Stand in line... And let the cute guy in front of you flirt away about dinner tonight. And don't forget to mention you make the BEST tacos!! LOL!

Ok, not all of that happened to me just now in S&S. I bought beef and shells. And a slice of chocolate cake. And sparkling cider and a SMALL box of chocolates for Brian for tomorrow.

Tomorrow is the 8 month anniversary.

So, I am in line behind a guy buying his own dinner stuff. And he gets carded for the beer he bought. And he jokes about how that's flattering. And I laughed. Cuz it's funny. Cuz he is OBVI over 21. Anyhow.

And he said "tacos for dinner?" Can't say no. So I said yes, told him how it is my go-to when I need something quick. He is having a rotisserie chicken. His go-to when the schedule gets crazy. And spinach. A man who loves spinach?! LOL

Anyways. He saw my single slice of cake - seriously, what other woman but a single slice of chocolate cake? A single woman. Maybe a woman whose husband doesn't like chocolate? No ring on this chick's finger though.

He just blatantly asked if I wanted to do something sometime.

And I blurted that I am married. Married. Not that I am in a serious relationship and how much I LOVE my boyfriend. Not that the sparkling cider and chocolates are for Brian. I just said I am married, but thanks.

And that was the end. My side dialogue makes it seem longer than it was. It wasn't very long. He flattered me. Always flatters me when I am flirted with. Feels so good!

I am ready to go home and eat some tacos. And get dinner ready for tomorrow... Cabbage Rolls. Stuffed cabbage. I have massage at 530, but told Brian I will be home around 7/730 if he wants to have dinner. They only take 20 mins to bake, so I want to have them ready for tomorrow night. Nice and easy! :D



Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Evil Green Giant Surfaces Again

Everyone. Every. One. Everyone is having. Babies. Babies. Beautiful babies. Gifts from God Himself.

Mother effer.

I just love the smell of newborns, don't you?


Decide this morning I would see how many days I can go without coffee.

Then I went to Big Y and bought new coffee. So it lasted 12 hours.


BUT, this smells amazing....

Monday, January 16, 2012

Friggen snow. =(
My two last weeks in pictures....


I miss the Christmas tree.

Yoga With Katie

Goodbye Weekend.
Goodbye Monday.
Hello work.
Hello Tuesday.

Today was one of the longest days I have experienced since Middle School.... Since the all-night graduation party June 16-17, 2006.

Was up before 5. Rolled onto my side and listened to Brian get in the shower. Listened to the rain fall on his body. I absolutely love that sound. I love knowing hearing the bottle of his delicious smelling body wash make that ssspppphhhhh noise when the air is released. Yes, I squeeze that bottle when I shower to smell it. Yumm.
I listened to him brush his teeth. Rinse. Listerine. I love mornings with Brian.

And then he came into the bedroom and gently wake me. I LOVE THIS. I LOVE THIS!
He left and I just lay there while he did whatever he does in the kitchen/living room. He came back and let me know it was 5am. So I grudgingly rolled (literally) out of bed. At 5AM.

Jeremy showed up around 545 and I left for work. Stopped at Dunkin Donuts for some coffee and a muffin. And I stayed there for 45 minutes. Went to work around 630 and hang out for half an hour before wandering to my own desk. So, I worked from 7-5 today. 10 hours. Just 10. It really wasn't bad. The babysitter was out, so I had a slow day! :D It was productive! I was happy to have finished a lot of the model I am working on.

Tonight was my first experience with yoga. Katie has been going through some hard stuff, so I asked if we could hang out tonight. She suggested joining her in HOT YOGA!! It was definitely HOT!! But it felt soooooo good. My legs were shaky. Some poses were difficult for me, but it felt so AMAZING afterward!

And then Brian was drunk when he got home. These are the times I am soooo happy we are not living together! It makes me so uncomfortable when people are drunk. Anyways. I called him on my way home. All he said in his text that he was wasted.. UGH! I wasn't sure if he was home. That stuff makes me so worried.. Getting home safely part. But he was home safe, so I was definitely relieved.

I LOVED LOVED the hot yoga. I feel so great today. I woke up feeling good. A little groggy in the morning, but all in all, I felt pretty good! =] And the yoga felt soooo amazing. And now I am hungry. LOL I feel good since I stretched. I WANT TO GO RUNNING hahahahaha (Not really...)

I am feeling tired. BUT GOOD! I just want to lay down now. Maybe read... ?


And thank you for reading my blog... =]

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

1-11-12 pt2

Totally forgot that I also made chocolate covered strawberries for dessert for tomorrow.

I will need to stop in Groton on my way home to get some kind of sparkling wine to go with. :)


Sitting on the edge of my bed eating dinner. Yupp, in my room. On my bed.

Still in work clothes. It's only 10:12 as I write this to you.

Today was a productive day. Work was slow and boring. Just the way I like it. I am finishing up re-drawing Lockheed Martin drawings and doing some 3D modeling. I am now putting together those little pieces to make a big picture model. I hope it all works or else I will be VERY pissed. So anyways.

Dinner with Brian tomorrow at my house for a change ;) I am making a pot roast in the crock pot. And spinach. Yumm!
I forgot to get an onion, so I sprinkled minced onions on the bottom instead of sliced white onions. Oh well?
I followed the rest of the recipe.

Did you know that this is my first time making a roast? It is. I am nervous. Very nervous. Especially since BriN is coming over for dinner. I hate feeling inadequate.

I don't even really know what this man wants from me - from "us".... He doesn't share any of that with me. 8 months in a couple weeks. I know what I want, but what about HIM?! How do I ask this without sounding like I am putting pressure on him? The answer is don't say anything at all. That was tonight's message at Bible Study. The best and only answer is not to say anything at all. THAT IS NOT EASY FOR ME!
I mentioned that. I mentioned waiting is hard. Of course, we were not talking about me. Or relationships. I was saying that waiting - period - was difficult. We were talking about Samuel waiting for Lord's call. For him to ask for him. Samuel replies that he is indeed ready, he is a servant waiting to serve. And God told him to wait. Wait. Just wait. Lots of waiting for God to bring punishment to the house of Eli. Just wait for this to happen. YIKES!

I'm not good with waiting for anything. I can be impatient. I can be pushy. I am a pusher. And I want to know what Brian wants. I want him to TALK to me.

I have gone through the "starter wife" BS twice already. I am not ready to go through it again. He has me involved with planning his house. And I feel pulled in two opposite directions. I've been here before. I've been involved and shit and then left naked, hungry, and cold in the cold rain on a curb.
Not literally, dummy.
I am scared! Scared of getting myself attached to something that will never be mine!! Partly mine! No, I will not help him pay for this.

I just want him to tell me he wants me forever. It does not mean an engagement. It is just sharing feelings, dreams, hopes. I shared mine. I told him mine. I want him to trust me enough with his own dreams, fears, hopes and visions.
I know he wants kids. He is not a dog guy. I'm OK with that. He wants to have an active lifestyle - we are active. And he wants a healthy lifestyle. But where do I fit in there?! Does he want ME by his side in this adventure. I don't know.

Obviously, I am here. We are still together. We are HAPPY! Maybe that is what scares me, though. We are happy. Truly happy and not that fake happy I see among my family and friends.

This is the happiest I have ever been in a relationship.

The starter husbands obviously suck ass because they couldn't see how awesome I am. Hahahaha.

I love Brian. Just want some opening up to happen. But, patience is key. Shut up and listen, Melody. He is talking, but you aren't listening. you're a crazy woman who is turning more and more into that person you do NOT want to be.

Dinner tonight was ground beef with salsa and hot sauce. And some cheese. Always cheese.

Looking forward to this delicious red meat fest that will be happening in my mouth tomorrow. And the snuggles. That will be awesome too.

Thanks for listening to the crazy vent.


Minced Onion and salt at the bottom of the crock pot...

I have paprika, chili powder, black pepper and salt all over my roast.

And then in the crock pot. Btw, that sea salt is amazing. Friggen delicious. Go buy some.

Lots of love, Mel

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Rumor Has It...

Awesome. Now I have Queen B at work trying to sabotage me.
She is pissed that I am doing some 3D modeling. Apparently, she is due for a promotion and wants it. But she needs to refine her modeling skills, I'm hearing.

I don't understand how this could be OK or ethical. How can you kick someone out of their work for someone else to do it? I am not unqualified for what I am doing. I am not doing a terrible job. I may be slower than others, but that's the whole idea. I also want to sharpen my 3D modeling skills.

******This was a post unfinished but I decided to publish it anyways.